Phylicia Rashad’s Letter to 21-Year Old Self:
Romantic involvement distracts you and can blind you to what’s really in front of you. And what really is in front of you? You are. You don’t even know yourself yet. You think you know and you want to assert that you do, now that you’re a certain age, but you don’t. What’s in front of you is a whole world of experiences beyond your imagination. Put yourself, and your growth and development, first. There are long-term repercussions to what you’re doing now. Everything you do, every thought you have, every word you say creates a memory that you will hold in your body. It’s imprinted on you and affects you in subtle ways—ways you are not always aware of. With that in mind, be very conscious and selective.
With high hopes for you,
i just wanna disappear. i don’t want this to happen to me again. i know it will if i stick around.
I don’t think I’ve ever read something so relevant to how I currently feel right now. I can’t allow my heart to be treated like a yo-yo again, because now the string is broken and if I stick around… a knot will be put in place until it breaks again. And I don’t think I’ll be able to withstand that, so I have to move on and love myself more than any earthly person ever could because that, I’m realizing, is the only true happiness.